His demise.

What do you call someone who has a heart that's fragile like glass and a mind with a racing pulse?
Probably someone named Noah. 

He had the sweetest heart that many took advantage of both knowingly and unknowingly. Even though he knew he was being used he wanted to help someone who was just as much in a rut as him. Always one step ahead ready to show kindness. 

I secretly loved him as he wasn't someone anyone could openly love, only in secret. I wish he told the world about all the great plans he had because then maybe someone could have saved him knowing his future was filled with promising adventures.

His smile grew crowds, everyone wanted to sit with him and pick his pocket. And for sure he welcomed them in and allowed them to steal from him. This was not his kindness but his inability to understand that some people can never change. He didn't see it as them taking advantage or stealing he saw them for all that they didn't have and thought since he had more than enough he could help them. 

Sadly all Noah knew was helping which lead to his demise.

His great fall will be celebrated by all the envious vipers that we're jealous of all he had that they didn't.  Some of these pestilent people are in the congregation supposing to pay respects. To what I don't know. I only hope that you all will change seeing as he saw so much for you than yourselves. 

I secretly loved his kindness but other times it made me angry that the one person I wanted to stand up for wouldn't let me and allowed people to walk over him like spoiled milk. Maybe one day he'll show me how to be that selfless to not only love the people I know but everyone.

His last act was most memorable, I laugh at this only to say that he saw it coming. He knew, told me and I didn't believe it. I didn't want to believe it. Who would? I was sure that he would make it out alive and probably coin his survival to grace. He once told me that."Good people live on once gone, lives are changed and they rest knowing they made an impact " he passed on that message everywhere he went.

I never understood what he meant and often got annoyed at how many times he had repeated the same phrase. Yet he always responded with a nonchalant answer "Things aren't meant to be clear within the moment but after everything you see the full picture." I would always allow his words of such kind to enter one ear and exit the other because I didn't understand what he was saying!

Today we mourn not because of his death but that he didn't get to touch enough lives. Or maybe so I think. I still expect him to walk through the door telling me it was all a trick but 5 months later and I'm sure he's not coming back....anytime soon. 

I apologize for keeping you all so long but Noah deserved this much especially from me because days before the accident he helped me to figure out that after all, I wasn't all that broken instead I just held on to shattered glass that I didn't realize that I had already healed.

He was my beginning and end. I was one of the many stars that he made an impact on in this broken universe. I was his treasure and he was my person.

Noah, this surely won't be the last that we'll all gather because of you. Your work won't ever be done. So keep on working.

I love you.




                            Written by: Aja' Allen

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