Aja's Serenity

Darkness never felt so good.  Have you ever wished you knew someone through and through their whole life story? I wish I knew all of him and honestly, I wish he knew me too. How is it that two miraculous teens consumed by darkness confused sunshine with sadness? Their very existence revolved around each other which is why their end was tragic. Maybe I was naive to have thought we deserved our fate. Maybe my cry for him and his lack of a response was what would set me free. I still can't fathom how we got here. I blame the mere fact that our 'love' was fueled by lust. I blame him and his lack of self-control and me for being devoured by his charm.   We were both blinded and uncertain of where we were walking. What we had was not love but simply a poor representation of passion. His way with words always caught hold of me before I could run away. He didn't need to chase me down because I always found my way back to him. That is the embodiment of self-infliction.  Toxic...

Maybe we should let the world set on fire? It's hard to sometimes make a masterpiece out of dust till the fire starts and then you get inspired. It's easy to write, notice and speak about all the things going wrong we forget that Maybe happiness is around the corner. Not that we would ever check. Maybe letting the world set on fire isn't such a bad thing because maybe this is the way it was always supposed to be. The true essence of Love I've been told is selflessness and I guess that suggests that we'll never be happy because we're all selfish. That's the truth we won't always know how to show love and kindness and all our bad deeds will start to overflow. Blame it on the fact that we're sinners and it's hard to tell the temptations no. I wonder if our aim is to self-sabotage and trick ourselves into thinking we can't be and do better. My theory is because we love the world so much or the things of the world so much we're willing to sacr...