Aja's Serenity

Sadly we all want acceptance and we'll go to the darkest of places just to find it, hoping it will somehow make us whole, somehow fill us up. With what I don't know.  We all can't stand being alone and that's the truth if it hurts you I suppose you too know from experience. I'm not here to lay your insecurities out on the table, I'm just speaking facts. Things that you already know but refuse to listen to. You want love so you go out and search for it or worse you wait hoping it magically falls on your  doorstep. Jealous of relationships that you don't have, relationships you sit and dwell on. Searching for acceptance in all the wrong places.  Why do you want to be accepted?  The true answer is because we aren't accepting of ourselves so we want someone else to show us we're enough. Validation. Keep seeking and you shall not find it. Maybe you will gain recognition but that's truly not worth anything if you don't appreciate yourself.  Look in...

I met her at her lowest and she met me at my best. Life was going great, everything was going great till she ran into my life, bulldozed my walls, and landed in my heart.  Once she came, I knew she was trouble. Trouble, I didn't need, trouble, I couldn't handle or tame. Call her a wild beast trying to attack anyone she meets with pure happiness in their heart. I should have ran before she broke me to the point of no return. To the point where I no longer knew myself, for I was lost. While she gained happiness I grew into sadness. There were no longer smiles and laughter. The worst part is I allowed her to get that far. I allowed her to dig her claws deep within my skin. I allowed her to torment my soul and put me in extreme agony. I allowed her in!  Her smile tricked others into games they wouldn't win. Games they couldn't win but choose to enter. She had the power to turn minds and gain control of their decisions. She knew where to find your weaknesses and attack as so...